phantomania

i'm relieved...

2009-10-04T20:37:00.001-07:00

EXAM, STRESS, FAMILY!!!!

all gone... hehe.. i'm relieved..

I did well for EXAM although i was sick after the second paper because of the DOMINO's pizza i thought...

STRESS was good enough for me as i can manage it well...

I'm far from my FAMILY. Oh, it's so heaven...

love,

Syazwan Syahmiel

fRiEnd first!!!!

2009-09-27T12:07:00.000-07:00

its too many for me to tell about this...
in my life, i'm always put my beloved friends at the top.
some said that the most important for our life is our family because they are the origin or the base of our life...
but i don't know why until now i can't accept that "Family First"

I know it's not good for me to state this : " I hate my family"
but this is my feeling right now!!! Arrrrrrrrgggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!
Damn!!!

I realized since my childhood time, I'm not a good son. I did a lot of wrongs and mistakes.. I remembered when my mom need to come and seek my teacher because of some cases that I did in primary school.. I know it is my fault.. I learned that now and I realized about that..

But, i never get enough attention from my parents.. When i get a chance to study in SMK(A) Sultan Muhammad, they just know that I will be a good person because of the school title that is so islamic. They never know what is the real things there.. They never ask how am i there and concern about my life there. They just know to hope that i will be success in my study there...

It's a shit!!! The school totally change my life and I'm not being better as what they hope but I'm stucked in the bad site of my life..

learning is a part of life...

2009-09-15T09:01:00.000-07:00

today, i learn a lot of things :
1. what is the real meaning of friends
2. the meaning of love and...
3. the meaning of to be loved and lover.

i don't know why i should post this. perhaps it comes from my heart and what are my perspective about these things.

FRIEND- someone who always be with us no matter in happy, sad or else.. typical answer when we ask people.. Btw, for me friend can be described with a lot of things..

1. ya, perhaps for the true friends are the typical meaning above
2. someone who is the place for us to laugh and enjoy the good things only..

~surely, there are a lot of people like this~
they just want to be with us only for the good time. its nice but sometimes it makes the relationship worse. why am i saying that?? because they are not genuine! be with us to get the happiness and left us for something bad..

3. someone who always pretend to be good but actually they are not...

~ why most people are like this????~

i was involved in a case that make my relationship with some friends going bad.. i don't know why... i love them so much but i feel i am the crackers for their relationship... backstabbing, envy, and all the bad things happen either to me or them..
a day i was called by my lovely senior, a conflict rise between me, him and others.. i don't know what happened to them... i am so sad because they have be a part of my family...

LOVE- its hard to say... as i read diva divana's blog about the crisis happened towards his friend makes me unclear about the meaning of love. but i am agree with him about this statement:

"when the one we love are in front, we never appreciate him nicely, but when he is gone, we realized that he is actually important to us"
and
"do appreciate the love we have, don't always hope and find the perfectness in love, meanwhile forgot that no one is perfect in this world."

TO BE LOVED and LOVER- these are actually the derivation from LOVE..

for me, to be loved is situation achieved when we care and try the best in our relationship and lover is someone that we appreciate the most and share our lifetime with them...

that's for today... so, from friends we have someone special to be our lover and hope to be loved forever...

love,
syazwan syahmiel

sorry...

2009-09-10T02:06:00.000-07:00

sorry guyz..
i'm so busy right now.
i will continue later..
thanks..

Second Ramadhan and The Birthday Boy

2009-08-23T20:54:00.000-07:00

Mmm, second Ramadhan was very tough day for me. Firstly, time for journey back to CFS IIUM. Such a long journey and tiring day. Although I spent my time sleeping in the bus. Huhu... Thanks God because Hazim with me.

The time we reached Jalan Pudu Raya, there was a traffic congestion. Maybe because of the new system that had implemented by the government(special lane for bus before reaching the Pudu Raya Station). It make us to dropped ourselves first and walked for a 250 metres to the station. Huhh, so tired..

Heading to CFS, Hazim and I make a decision to go to Secret Recipe first for our surprise party that night. Hehe... Hazim went to Cold Storage for his fasting stuff. Finally, we reached our beloved CFS at 6.00 pm.

For the break fast venue, we chose Studio 3 as invited by Hazwan. Everyone got this massage:

" Attention to all GA members, venue for breaking the fast is at Studio 3. You are kindly invited to join this event. Please be there on 7.10 p.m before adzan."

However, only Azhar could not join us because he still in the train at that time.
There were a lot of dishes for our iftar. Everyone brought some menus from home. ~chocolate cake, special "kek batik" by Hazim, and the others dishes from Hazwan, Fahmi and Nasrul.~

Done our iftar, we performed our Maghrib prayer at Studio 4 as there had a compartment for pray. Then, we spent our time there until Isyak.

Ohh, first Terawih in PJ.. It was good. I just made 8 rakaat from 23 rakaat done by the Imam.. Hehe.. After that, Azhar reached CFS after we done our prayer on 9.30 p.m.

Such a good environment in the mosque. So peaceful.. This image captured after 12 rakaat. People become less and less. Typical situation in every mosque. Hehe...

Then, the time for the surprise party. Our planned went systematically. Everyone gave the best to surprise the birthday boy. Thanks everyone!! Actually, this party was celebrated for Hazwan's birthday that falls on 21 August. But, we postponed the event on that night because on 21, we went to our hometown for the first Ramadhan. Hehe..

From left: Fahmi, Hazim, Hazwan(the birthday boy), Nasrul and Azhar.

All of us had a great time enjoyed the party. Special cake from Secret Recipe(Chocolate Indulgence)

Huhu, we could just finished the cake only for half. We were fully loaded with other food. Finally, Azhar's roommates finished all the left cake. Alhamduliilah, our day was very special and happening.

Love,
Syazwan Syahmiel

First day of Ramadhan

2009-08-22T08:22:00.000-07:00

Alhamdulillah, my first Ramadhan was good enough. As Muslim, "Sahur" time is really important for us to maintain our energy during the fasting day.

I woke up on the early of 5 a.m(if I'm not mistaken) . Thanks to my mom as she do her duty for his lovely son.. Hehe..
I did Sahur alone with rice and "Ayam masak rendang" and a cup of Milo. Surely, I'm a little bit sleepy for the first Sahur.

After enjoying my meal, while waiting for the Subuh, I spend my time watching TV. It's Nur Kasih on Tv3 that accompanied me until the Subuh time reached.
Then, completely done my Subuh prayer, I continue my dream again. Huhu... Nap time!!!

10.30 a.m, usual time to wake up in the morning. Huargggh!!! (Ngantoknyer...) Time running so fast, so I'm quickly run for my bath time.. Huhu..

Mmmm, what special for today??? Mmm, buying bus ticket for going back to K.L tomorrow? Having some indoor shopping at Family Store? Oh, I remember, today I enjoyed my time watching The Legend of Zorro in AXN Channel(Astro 701) . It is really interesting movie..Why am I considered this story is interesting? Firstly, it is about the plot of the story that tell about the life of a hero with his conflict as two different characters between a father and a hero.
I am attracted towards Joaquin character(Zorro's son) that makes the story more interesting and fun. Finally, a hero will always win although there are many obstacles to face..

Mmm, break the fast time!!! Today, the table was fully loaded with various kind of dishes..

Homemade jemput-jemput, Mee Hong Kong, Grandma pulut merah, murtabak and bubur lambuk masjid... Hehe.. Delicious!!!! Yummy!!! But, I can't finish it all at one time... I'm not a food tank.. Huhu.. Anyway, Alhamdulillah for the precious food..

Next, Terawih time... As usual, for the first week, it's not weird if the mosque is fully booked by everybody.. I just make 8 rakaat with some others sunat prayers and ends with Sunat Witir.. Alhamdulillah, my first Ramadhan is good enough..

Love,
Syazwan Syahmiel

New phase of my life...

2009-08-21T22:37:00.000-07:00

Today, on the 22 August 2009(the first of Ramadhan) is the lucky day for me as I'm creating this blog for the first time. Alhamdulillah, it comes without saying that suddenly I decide to have a blog like other bloggers.
Maybe, this is the way for me to spend my time and share my life with others. It is not important if people say I'm just so-called "Syok Sendiri" with myself because do I care with them?
I need to appreciate myself and my life.
I just want to enjoy my life with various things.
So, InsyaAllah I will manage this blog chronologically with the diary of my life..
Thanks...

With pleasure,
Syazwan Syahmiel